Dear God
  
Dear God, I was a pastor for 23 years. It killed me. I am not sure I was every called to it. As you know, the overwhelming numbness finally caved in all around me. Now, I am on the outside of the church looking in and I don’t like what I see. Why do we have to be fake to be a Christian or part of a church? How did we buy the lie that showing up occasionally was the same as a relationship with you? Now that I am not a pastor, people are honest with me. I had no idea how hard life was for so many people because when they came on my “turf” they pretended just as much as I did. I feel hope inside God. Now, without the job I feel like you let me go through everything to understand pain. I want to do what I can, but I feel like a failure every day. Can you still use me? Brian, USA/OhioShare:      
Dear God, I think I have finally fallen in love. Please give me strength to make this work. Please make him the one, the good one. Please make me look past all the superficial, and please make me refrain from being too judgemental. I think about him all the time, even when I’m NOT thinking about him. And I imagine his laugh, and the way his eyes crinkle, and I think of the things that amuse him. I might just be ready for a commitment. Dee, Cape Town/South Africa Share: |